sometimes i just want to write about stuff that happens. i feel as if this whole other life is waiting for me of excitement, adventure, anticipation, and love and i am constantly waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting for things to happen. i just want to fall in love or have a dream come true or anything different but then nothing nadaaada nothing happens and i am always feeling that it just hasnt started yet that god has something amazing planned for me its just taking a long time getting here over this past year will the rest of high school be like grade 11 like zombie i want i want to blog and write about happenings in my life only there are nonemaybe i just need to be patient?
i dont know.
maybe i should try something different? at least i went on my first roller coaster this year. i guess that was exciting.and i turn 18. oh, look like thats going to be fun one. ....maybe i dont need to be patient and i should stop being so fucking lazy and make something happen.
like what?
all i can make is art.